"The Women Build Heaven" Exhibition @ Máquinas gallery | Rua Mártires da Liberdade nº 154, Porto, Portugal. This saturday!
1 - 31 March 2014.
A Máquinas de Outros Tempos tem a honra de o convidar para a inauguração da exposição de Anzi Matta “The Women Build Heaven” este sábado, dia 1 de Março, pelas 18H.
Mon artwork on Straylight magazine volume 7.2.
Straylight is a journal of creative and visual arts from Wisconsin, U.S. And, fyi my Greg Graffin (Bad Religion) from Wisconsin too. Kode cinta
“We could encourage the emergence of top quality young people, whether it’s curiosity, sense of adventure, endurance and surprising insight simply by being more flexible with respect to time, reference books, and exams. The way to introduce children to adults who are fully competent and occasionally provide students the necessary freedom to take risks. But we did not do that.”
- John Taylor Gatto
I am always moving from one school to the other school. Because of my dad’s job duties. When I was in elementary school, I had attended four different schools. And, I have always been a stubborn and lazy little girl. I have also taken accelerated classes. When I was in third grade, and I did not take it seriously about accelerated classes, I am just like let’s try this test. As it turned out, my IQ is 140, the highest of 19 other children. Dozens of students took IQ tests for accelerated classes. I was one of 19 lucky people. Oh, no I’m not lucky. I was born for this.I was surprised. Then, I have had the IQ test when I was in high school. The results are much different, about 112. I do not remember it about the specific number because I throw the paper away. I don’t know but when I asked about my different result to psychologist and he said that, that time when I got my 112, I was in kind of situation, so-called trouble or have a problem. And, when I get a psychological test in Akmil. I get a judgment, not an explanation in psychology or sociology. I know from the beginnig because c’mon this is military instituation. They have different ideology and different ways. I see that judgment, as typical a lot of people do. And then I remember my education system..
When I was in elementary school I was always bullied by teachers because I have a weak physical. No matter about my struggle they always won the game. Because they are teachers. I’ve suppressed.. like.. my one of teacher (sport subject) always bullied like my mental because I had almost a month of school because I was being affected by lung disease and dengue fever.
I’m also having a bit of stress at this time. Perhaps, some students also feel the same. I call it pressured to learn this system. With the addietional hours. And, some of the rules that make us depressed. I was tired, although I do not want tired. Like there are some of my friends who have to work. There are also additional courses that we must attended. I want to be angry with the education system. I want to be angry to the government. But, it was not possible. When I or maybe you are.. all of you aware that there is something wrong with the education system, is there any one like the genius academics who want to fix the education system?
Our nation has experienced discrimination education and social class status . At that time we are colonized by other nations. Call it , Netherlands and Japan. Enough already tasted the bitterness. Get an education from other nations and then into the middle class. Worked for the colonial government. Pathetic. Then, there are times when we seemed to be colonized by our nation itself. I felt that the education discrimination everywhere…. We have a history , and please do not repeat again. And I find it hard to accept the lesson from school. I have always been difficult to accept lessons in public schools. I am more easy to accept lesson subject in private schools. I do not know why. I was worried about myself with teaching just so-so, I felt I had to swallow lesson from text books. I can not work with force. I know I am better than this. I am a good student that was ruined by the education system .
There are many policies that need to be considered: such as additional school hours and the tasks given. I have no problem with the task, it is the obligation of students. But, consider the tasks and tests are carried out continuously. And, consider the practice of any given task. We’re only human. And, as I have now is my confused look for an empty schedule for sport subject test. Because, the school has a policy about swimming test like compulsory subjects. I can not swim. I repeated the test like a dozen times. My teacher knew I was in trouble with it. But he didn’t care. I feel, like a military school. And, you know? I have to find a way to be able to put the machine in my body..
I’m not trying to oppose school rules or this school policy or this education system. I don’t blame the system. I just questioned how a system was implemented. It would be easy, it would be easier if I undergo that rule. I can obey the rules, but I have to question about the rules or how the policy was implemented. You want us to be a genius academics like you do this to us: provide additional hours and presses us with a series of tests. With students who have a different character and is dominated like.. by the hyperactive students or idk, with this system you just presses them. only create slaves. You force them to do what you think is good. Additional hours its good? What do you think is good, but not entirely. With this policy, one of your goals to create an academic genius. You do not create it. You told me, us, them TO OBEY THE RULES. I’m telling you, you will not have the opportunity to create even academic genius as you wish. You build a slave army. Yes, slaves.
Yeah… get a job. Go to work. Get married. Have children. Follow fashion. Act normal. Walk on the pavement. Watch TV programs. Obey the law. Save for your old age. I am not a robot. We are not robots. No, I am not “a good girl who obey the rules or policy” in your tiny perspective. I am a slave that you created, basic from your rules. But, I always questioned about all the rules and the policy and take the essence. We are not created from the machines but it does not mean when we follow the rules we are machines. That’s not what I mean, I mean when we are obedient, we also must be able to answer and feel the benefits of compliance. We know the essence. We created empathy. So, this is not about obey or not, but how the rules and policy is implemented by taking the essence without forgetting that there’s another perspective.
Dear teachers, I am trash and shit and crazy to you and this whole fucking world, You don’t care where I live or how I feel, or what I eat or or how I pay the doctor if I get sick, and yes I am stupid and bored and weak, but I am still your responsibility.
Here’s the one of my favorite quote: Do not educate your child to be rich. Educate him to be happy. So when he grows up, he’ll know the value of things, not the price.
Dan jika kamu menuruti kebanyakan orang-orang yang di muka bumi ini, niscaya mereka akan menyesatkanmu dari jalan Allah. Mereka tidak lain hanyalah mengikuti persangkaan belaka, dan mereka tidak lain hanyalah berdustaQS. Al-An’am  : 116 (via sarahsoeprapto)
Anda dapat memberikan label kepada siapapun sesuka anda: hipster, gaul, smart, alay, kampungan, etc. Tanpa pikir panjang bagi saya kutipan “don’t judge book by its cover” sudah usang dan terlalu klise (walau pada kenyataannya mungkin banyak buku keren dengan cover yang buruk).
Ada yang bilang saya social climber, atheist, pluralis, talented, sombong,etc. Banyak label yang diberikan kepada orang-orang kepada saya. Begitupun anda, tanpa anda sadari. “Si Anu itu baik lho”, “Si Nganu gampangan lho”, etc. Tidak jauh-jauh realitas membawa saya, di sekolah begitu.
Magelang itu hanyalah kota kecil, jadi semua orang saling mengenal. Jangan salahkan dunia itu sempit, tapi memang Magelang yang wilayahnya cuma segitu aja. Lupakan istilah mudah bergaul, kita tahu ada bantuan sosial media. Bahkan, ketika saya baru setahun di Magelang, banyak yang berbisik-bisik mengenai saya dan mengaku-ngaku mengenal saya. Banyak label yang menempel. Saya tidak peduli, walau sebenarnya mungkin saya sedikit peduli dan gerah terhadap hal itu. Saya merasa mual. Saya merasa apa yang mereka katakan adalah salah (wajar saja itu karena ego diri sendiri saya mengatakan). Saya marah dengan label mereka, saya mual. Saya pura-pura cuek. Saya mengignore semua label itu dalam pikiran saya. “Saya adalah diri saya sendiri”.
"Saya adalah diri saya sendiri.", kalimat ini bodoh bagi saya. Lalu, apa label yang kamu berikan untuk dirimu sendiri, anzi? Karena terlalu banyak label, terlalu banyak label yang ditolak pula hingga akhirnya kebinggungan apa yang harusnya label yang menurutmu benar. Menurut ego itu. Dan, pada akhirnya tidak dapat melabeli diri sendiri.
Magelang hanya segitu-gitu aja, jadi tidak jarang saya mendengar beberapa orang menyebut saya sombong. Kadang saya pernah mendengar ada yang berbisik “jadi, anzi anaknya biasa gitu kok.”, begitu melihat saya jalan kaki dan naik sepeda kemana-mana. Jadi, kamu pikir saya ini apa? Karena label sombong itu kamu pikir berarti saya adalah perempuan bermobil dan memamerkan siapa diri saya dan apa yang dimiliki saya? Sempit sekali..
Terlalu banyak label. Dan, menurut saya pada akhirnya anda tidak dapat melepaskan label tersebut. Itu menempel pada kamu. Entah, itu buruk atau baik. Itu tetap menempel di mata banyak orang. Tetapi, jangan biarkan label tersebut menempel dalam pikiran kamu. Itu menganggu anda, menghalangi siapa diri anda. Lupakan, dan tinggalkan mereka. Biarkan mereka mati penasaran dengan pertanyaan mengenai diri kamu.
Saya tahu, bahwa saya tidak perlu mengklasifikasi kepada orang-orang mengenai label yang menempel pada saya. Karena, yang dapat mengklasifikasi adalah pikiran itu sendiri. Tidak lebih. “Kamu mau label dari orang lain menghambatkan produktifitas dan talentamu?”
Adam said aloud “You are my ribs. And, you will still be mine.”
Apple was silent. She knew what was going on. She will be eaten by Adam, and her story will be written in the bible. She always belonged to Adam. She will always belong to the other Adams. Always.
thank you <3
wah makasih, semoga keren beneran yah. haha, diliat yah. inspirasi itu datengnya darimana-mana sih, kadang datengnya ga pake samlekom.
haha paling yang nanya sekitaran temen-temen gua doang